I ran my first site for 6 years before making the hard decision to close it down. There was so much going on in my life at the time and to tell you guys the truth. Struggling does not come close to what I was feeling. I was caring for my wonderful nan who was undergoing chemo, whilst working full-time.
I simply could not carry on blogging. Something had to give and unfortunately, at the time the only thing that I could change was my blog. That very night I sat down, disabled my blog and then decided to go ahead and just delete it completely. At the time, it was the best thing for me to do. It took me quite a while for me to want to make that commitment again.
So, today I am going to talk to you guys and let you know if I am glad I came back to blogging.
After I deleted my blog, I didn’t know what to do with myself. I hadn’t had a free weekend in so long. Normally my weekends were packed out with writing content and scheduling my posts for the next week. My mind had no stimulus and bored doesn’t even describe how I was feeling. Suddenly, I didn’t know what to do with all of my free time. I can remember that it did get easier in the weeks that followed. I loosened up a little and found new things that I could be doing. But in the end, I had to replace my blogging hobby with another and that was an exercise for me. Blogging was still on my mind and I yearned to get back into the game.
A year ago, I made the decision to come back to blogging. I thought that now was a good time to sit down and speak to you guys a little bit about how it feels to be back in the blogging community. If I feel like I made the right decision. I am sure that all of the other bloggers out there know that even though this is a hobby to us, we still take it seriously. We want it to be a perfect representation of us and what we want our brand to look like. So we break our backs to make sure that it looks perfect. This means that my weekends are once again completely consumed by writing posts, taking/editing photographs and scheduling blog posts.
I feel like this time around though I have come back with a completely different attitude. I think the first time around I wanted to be a big blogger and I was keen to work with every brand and try to make it my full-time career. This time, I have come back purely just as a place to write and to make some new friendships online. Since taking away those pressures of trying to turn this into something much larger, I have appreciated it so much more. I think that joy that I once had for blogging all of those years back has once again returned and I am absolutely loving it. Not to mention that this time around my blog just seems to be doing organically so much better than it ever did before which I find super strange but also very inspiring!
I don’t want to turn this blog post into war and peace because it really isn’t necessary. Honestly, I had my reasons for deleting my blog the first time around. I honestly do feel like it was the right decision for me at the time. I am so happy that I have space once again. Again, I am part of a community that came to mean so much to me. I think that as long as I keep a good open mindset and try to keep my blog as just a piece of fun. Opposed to the job that it became last time. I then think that I will continue to love my little space on the internet!
